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Friday, October 14, 2011

You can't always bat 1000

That's what my husband said to me this morning. I wanted to smack him.

I got pregnant last August on our first try. I got pregnant on accident in April because we were careless. (We weren't supposed to be trying before the bar, and even though we knew I was ovulating, we just didn't care. I thought... What the hell? What's the worst that could happen? Ohhh naive self. You were so fun.)

I didn't think I would get pregnant either time. But I did. And neither pregnancy ended well. So, now I am a basket case.

This was the first month we started trying again and today was the official test day. Even though I knew this morning's test would probably be negative since every test I took over the last four days was negative (what? you don't do that too?), I was crushed when I saw it.

But, AJ is right...you can't always bat 1000.
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  1. MCWOctober 14, 2011 at 5:27 PM

    Oh J...I am sorry. I can just hear the sadness and disappointment in your voice. It is hard. I don't know about getting pregnant, but I know about disappointment and wanting something so BAD it hurts. Thinking of you...xo

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  2. Preppy Girl Meets WorldOctober 14, 2011 at 5:28 PM

    Not good at the whole motivational words thing so I'm just sending you a hug and letting you know I'm thinking of you hun.

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  3. ShainaOctober 14, 2011 at 5:49 PM

    Girl ... I feel you. More than I would like to admit. Emailing you now. :)

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  4. KatiellirbOctober 14, 2011 at 5:50 PM

    Oh, I'm so sorry! You are definitely still in my thoughts and prayers. I hope that someday soon that test switches it answer!

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  5. JanetOctober 14, 2011 at 6:09 PM

    It sucks to get a negative. But I still think batting .667 is pretty good. Here's to next month - maybe for both of us! Until then, hugs and wine.

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  6. LexiloooOctober 14, 2011 at 8:36 PM

    sending happy thoughts your way for next time!

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  7. AnonymousOctober 14, 2011 at 8:38 PM

    Ugh, I know that feeling. Hopefully next month brings happier news.

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  8. AnonymousOctober 14, 2011 at 9:44 PM

    I am not trying so I can't pretend to understand but please know from woman to woman I am thinking and praying for you on this journey.

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  9. Mrs. HansonOctober 15, 2011 at 1:33 PM

    I'm so sorry! I know how much you want a BFP after such a loss. It will happen when it is meant to, have faith. Here if you need to talk... been there, doing that.

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  10. Classy Fab SarahOctober 16, 2011 at 5:26 PM

    So so sorry. Praying for you guys.

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  11. Landlocked MermaidOctober 16, 2011 at 9:52 PM

    Oh no.. I am so sorry. It is going to get easier. Guys don't realize sometimes how hard this can be on us girls. I am here for you xoxo

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  12. I Love Your Whole FaceOctober 18, 2011 at 10:00 AM

    You have to keep your head up love. I am CONVINCED it will happen for you. It is just going to take time. I know that doesn't make a negative test any easier to swallow but it WILL happen. And you will be the BEST mom when it does! Thinking of you!!

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  13. Baju MuslimFebruary 20, 2012 at 12:14 PM

    nice your blog

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