Friday, October 21, 2011

I'm fine. Really!

A few people have asked me how I am doing, so I figured I'd share with everyone.

Last month was hard. TTC + hormones + fear of failure + plus fear of success and then failure = me being crazy and dramatic

However, once I found out I wasn't pregnant (well maybe the next day), I felt like my old self again. The last couple days have been fun. We've been out with friends every night this week and AJ and I have reverted back to our normal selves. We are having fun, being silly and enjoying each other's company. That doesn't mean I don't want a baby anymore, or that I am not sad at times, but just that the whole mood in our house has changed.

I'm really wondering if the hormones are a big part of why I was feeling so nuts. I wanted to cry almost every day (and did most days....including in my boss's office) and just felt like crap in general. I am supposed to take them three times a day a few days after I ovulate, which means I am constantly thinking about getting pregnant/having a baby during that two week wait. I am wondering if I waited until the end of the two weeks to begin taking them, if it would help my sanity. I am supposed to take them to help me stay pregnant if I am pregnant, but would skipping the first two weeks really make that huge of a difference? (Perhaps even less than two weeks, since we all know I will probably start testing sooner than test day...and if I test positive I will obviously take them.) If I can't sustain a pregnancy during weeks 3 and 4, then I am guessing there is bigger issue than something that can be treated with progesterone. Thoughts?

I am also supposed to take baby aspirin once a day, which I will continue to do, since that is much less intrusive and is supposed to help with implantation.

I guess I should talk to my doctor about all of this.

Anyway, that is how I am feeling these days!

P.S. I appologize that all I blog about recently is getting pregnant and everything that surrounds it, but hey....that's my life right now. Oh and I hope you like TMI!


  1. I don't know anything about trying to get pregnant. I just try not too. You'll get your baby...Have a great weekend just being in love :)

  2. I think there are mixed thoughts on whether or not a pregnancy can be helped with progesterone supplements. Some doctors think that they don't do anything. But my progesterone had dropped from normal level to a 0.5 within a week and going on the supplements helped keep my baby safe until the placenta started making progesterone on its own. So even though you feel miserable, I feel like it would probably be worth it to take it during the two week wait. I don't know. I'm not a doctor! Wishing you lots of luck with next cycle.

  3. It's your blog, so please write what you choose :)

    I am not trying to get pregnant so I can't understand what you and other women go through but I feel for you and I'm sure all of the hormones make things that much more intense :)

    Have a great weekend!

  4. Ohhh girl! I understand only having babies on your mind. I think it's a challenge to keep things from becoming all about a baby--and not focusing on the relationship. I really struggle with that. Anyways, you're in my prayers--the hormones make life tough!

  5. I love TMI! ;) Oh emotions! LOVE THEM... I think about you a lot and try not to regularly text and bug you. It's so hard to wait and take that test!

  6. Please don't apologize for what you write about, it *is* your blog, and it also helps those of us who care about you know what is top of mind. That's important for someone like myself who doesn't see you in person but thinks of you often and tries to keep up via the blog. Having said that, is there *anything* worse than raging hormones...?! I am sorry you have had to cope with all of this stuff, but glad to see you are doing better.

    I am sending you a big hug,

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