Friday, October 14, 2011

You can't always bat 1000

That's what my husband said to me this morning. I wanted to smack him.

I got pregnant last August on our first try. I got pregnant on accident in April because we were careless. (We weren't supposed to be trying before the bar, and even though we knew I was ovulating, we just didn't care. I thought... What the hell? What's the worst that could happen? Ohhh naive self. You were so fun.)

I didn't think I would get pregnant either time. But I did. And neither pregnancy ended well. So, now I am a basket case.

This was the first month we started trying again and today was the official test day. Even though I knew this morning's test would probably be negative since every test I took over the last four days was negative (what? you don't do that too?), I was crushed when I saw it.

But, AJ is right...you can't always bat 1000.

13 comments:

  1. Oh J...I am sorry. I can just hear the sadness and disappointment in your voice. It is hard. I don't know about getting pregnant, but I know about disappointment and wanting something so BAD it hurts. Thinking of you...xo

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  2. Not good at the whole motivational words thing so I'm just sending you a hug and letting you know I'm thinking of you hun.

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  3. Girl ... I feel you. More than I would like to admit. Emailing you now. :)

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  4. Oh, I'm so sorry! You are definitely still in my thoughts and prayers. I hope that someday soon that test switches it answer!

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  5. It sucks to get a negative. But I still think batting .667 is pretty good. Here's to next month - maybe for both of us! Until then, hugs and wine.

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  6. sending happy thoughts your way for next time!

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  7. Ugh, I know that feeling. Hopefully next month brings happier news.

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  8. I am not trying so I can't pretend to understand but please know from woman to woman I am thinking and praying for you on this journey.

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  9. I'm so sorry! I know how much you want a BFP after such a loss. It will happen when it is meant to, have faith. Here if you need to talk... been there, doing that.

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  10. Oh no.. I am so sorry. It is going to get easier. Guys don't realize sometimes how hard this can be on us girls. I am here for you xoxo

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  11. You have to keep your head up love. I am CONVINCED it will happen for you. It is just going to take time. I know that doesn't make a negative test any easier to swallow but it WILL happen. And you will be the BEST mom when it does! Thinking of you!!

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