Sunday, May 1, 2011

Sinking in

It's starting to sink in. I was definitely in shock the past two days. Now I'm really starting to breakdown. I got into bed tonight and just cried and cried. Why is this happening to me? I'm young, I'm healthy, and I'm a good person. The whole situation just is cruel and unfair.

Also, I'm freaking out about the house. Should we really be buying a three bedroom house if we might not be able to fill it? All I can think of are the two bedrooms that are supposed to be for our children.

I hate that I am being so dramatic, but I can't help how I feel right now.

11 comments:

  1. I'm so sorry this happened to you again. I'll pray for you.

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  2. Oh sweetie...I am sorry that you are going through such a hard time. You will have a family to fill those extra two rooms.

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  3. Yes, you should absolutely be buying your house to hold your future family. I know no one in your position wants to hear about success stories or how it will just work out; you need time to grieve, but do NOT give up on your dreams of having a family. Anything worth having is worth struggling for, and these losses will just make you so much more thankful and feel so very blessed when you do have a house full of children to love and cherish.

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  4. I am so so sorry. So unfair. I'm praying for you.

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  5. It's not drama, it's grief. And that's ok!!! xoxoxo

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  6. I am so sorry for all your sadness and grief. You have every right to go through the whole range of emotions. I have no doubt someday those rooms will be filled!

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  7. I am sending you huge hugs and lots of prayers. those rooms will be full of babies.. it will happen. xoxo

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  8. I'm so sorry hun. Definitely not drama. You're allowed to be sad. Tons of hugs and support to you right now!

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  9. I can't truly relate, but I do have a good family friend who has been in the same shoes. It's hard for me to know what to say other than to say that I have seen her deal with it... and I've also had my own things that have put me in the bed crying... and I guess that even though I know it never truly helps, I always remind myself and others that God has a plan and it'll all come together. The family friend ultimately went on to have four kids after several miscarriages. There was never really any explanation... just that sometimes it happens. I don't think you're being dramatic at all, and I'm sure in time there will be some answers.

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  10. I agree, those rooms WILL be filled with your babies. Text if you want! I don't know why it happens either, but that doesn't mean never.

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  11. I cannot begin to imagine how you're feeling right now. buying a house can be a bit overwhelming even without the added grief of another miscarraige. Do not give up! Let youself feel sad, and when you're feeling better try again. In the meantime, enjoy your home. Have fun decorating, planting flowers and cooking in your new kitchen. This is a snapshot of a time in your life, and you never get to experience this again.

    God will give you children to fill that home. It might not be at the time you planned or in the way you expected, but His plan is so great for you! Just keep working hard, making the right choices, and praying for peace of mind.

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